It’s
11:00pm and I still can’t sleep, I keep rolling from one end of the bed to the
other. I am tired of shedding tears; besides I don’t want a wet pillow to lay
my head on. Just imagine, I live in a fully furnished two bedroom apartment in
Lekki, I have an amazing job but I sleep on a king sized bed alone but it’s too
big for one person; I don’t even like using the air-condition at night anymore
because it gets so cold at night. Lord, for how long will I continue to live
like this, it’s really not fair at all.
How can I
Esosa, a.k.a Diamond the one and only stunning, beautiful and intelligent lady
still be single at this stage of my life. I am in my thirties, no husband to
call my own or even children that will make me happy and the worst part is that
I don’t even have a boyfriend. But wait o! I should not even be talking of
boyfriend at all. The last one duped me and ran away with all my savings. He
promised me that we were going to get married before the end of last year, but
see am still single. “Crying”
This life
is just so unfair. I have always been a good girl. When I was in the university,
the only thing I did was going to church from there I went to the library,
after reading I go back to my room. I had no business with guys neither did I do
lots of partying. However, most of my mates enjoyed partying; some went as far as
travelling to other states in search of men a.k.a “runs girl”. I usually got amazed
by their way of life but today those wild babes are happily married with children.
(What an irony)
I guess my
case was different, everyone just knew me as the very beautiful babe that loves
God and books, I guess that made me graduate as the overall best in my
department. I know some people might look at it as an achievement, but I honestly
feel I wasted opportunities. At least I would have hooked up with one of the
guys in my class, nurtured the relationship and am sure by now we would have
been married, instead I thought they were distractions and way beyond my
standard “complete broke ass” I just had a twisted, myopic and sterile mind
that could not see the prospect of a young man.
God!!!!!!! See
E-S-O-S-A-A-A, please look at her and remember her. I have been jumping from
one prayer house to the other. Last month due to frustration from my family members,
I took a week leave to attend Mountain of Fire Deliverance. I did lots of
fasting, prayers “this involved rigorous sessions; I had to cast out demons and
pray that my husband will come forth” still no man.
I am still waiting for that man o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o,
tomorrow is even Saturday and it’s a colleague’s wedding. I know am tired of
attending weddings and other social functions but I will still go. Who knows he
might be there. Am going to stay strong and hope for the best. I will dress up
tomorrow looking stunning and the diamond within will radiate.
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